Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2016 13:38:42 GMT -5
Her mind was moving through everything that she had done recently. The guilt she felt getting beat into her brain by her inner demons. You break everything you touch, you caused all this and you have ruined everything. How stupid can you be? They repeated to her over and over. She had been kicking herself since she woke up this morning. She made so many mistakes and she hurt people. She didn’t know why she her and Charles even happened. She just felt a draw to him and he asked her for a chance. He knew she was conflicted already and he knew he wasn’t helping. She felt ashamed for the fact that she didn’t even know if she should believe his words were sincere.
The way he acted after she cut him and left the room with walker led her to believe maybe just maybe they were but at this point all she could see was the pain she had caused people. Hearing damon speak telling her that what she said wasn’t true. She wished it made her feel otherwise but it didn’t. She felt his fingers touch her cheek and wipe the tear away. She didn’t even look at him because the torment her mind was causing would be seen then. She heard him say that even if she changed completely he still wouldn’t be mean to her. Though it was a relief she felt worse because she still felt guilty.
She watched as Damon gently rubbed walker’s hand. The baby’s fingers took a grip of one of his fingers. This brought a small smile to her face. Damon was there to help her when Walker was born and he had been a father to walker even though he wasn’t really required to. He had been Skylar’s best friend and protector at first because Charles made it his responsibility. Then it changed over time and now things changed again. “I almost stabbed Charles. Does that count?” She said with a small smile her eyes meeting Damon’s Trying to stop tormenting herself listening to his words trying to fight the demons out of her mind.
“Can you forgive me?” She said looking at him. “No matter what happens between us you will always be my best friend. You will always be walkers family that will never change. You have been there for me through everything. I have made my share of mistakes. I just want to make sure we will be okay. “ She said looking at him she spoke calmly and she looked back down to walker. Things had changed between them as far a possibility of them being anything but friends. She couldn’t explain her feelings for Charles except she was confused and something was there.
The way he acted after she cut him and left the room with walker led her to believe maybe just maybe they were but at this point all she could see was the pain she had caused people. Hearing damon speak telling her that what she said wasn’t true. She wished it made her feel otherwise but it didn’t. She felt his fingers touch her cheek and wipe the tear away. She didn’t even look at him because the torment her mind was causing would be seen then. She heard him say that even if she changed completely he still wouldn’t be mean to her. Though it was a relief she felt worse because she still felt guilty.
She watched as Damon gently rubbed walker’s hand. The baby’s fingers took a grip of one of his fingers. This brought a small smile to her face. Damon was there to help her when Walker was born and he had been a father to walker even though he wasn’t really required to. He had been Skylar’s best friend and protector at first because Charles made it his responsibility. Then it changed over time and now things changed again. “I almost stabbed Charles. Does that count?” She said with a small smile her eyes meeting Damon’s Trying to stop tormenting herself listening to his words trying to fight the demons out of her mind.
“Can you forgive me?” She said looking at him. “No matter what happens between us you will always be my best friend. You will always be walkers family that will never change. You have been there for me through everything. I have made my share of mistakes. I just want to make sure we will be okay. “ She said looking at him she spoke calmly and she looked back down to walker. Things had changed between them as far a possibility of them being anything but friends. She couldn’t explain her feelings for Charles except she was confused and something was there.